Friday, February 26, 2010

The Cave- Mumford & Sons

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans
through my tears
I know my call
despite my faults
And
despite my growing fears
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And I'll find strength in pain
And I will
change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again
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But I will hold on hope
And I won't let you choke
On the noose around your neck
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Welcome to the Lazarus Generation:

Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." (ESV)

Faith: i try, i commit
Time and again life conflicts
Within this world that contradicts
bad luck, old news, bankrupt millionaires
........Good Morning...........

Hope: In a generation
empty words; transformed to action
i dream for a new satisfaction
Crazy, radical, gospel
........revolution.........

Reality: an oxymoron itself
Do what your told?
Learn from the old?
Why not embrace
Christs rebirth; new creation
From this comes life
......The lazarus Generation.......

Good Morning Revolution, The Lazarus Generation.

You ever ask who created this reality or so called normality that we call our life? Who made all the rules, social norms, deciphered between an okay action and something crazy. Where is the line? I've come to realize that the lifestyle i am living no longer meets the expectations of "normality" within society. I have no ambition to acquire this "american dream" nor do i have the desires to become great within myself. In a world that covets self worth i understand the inability to grasp a life in which only one thing matters.

Luke 10:38-42 (ESV)

This is the story of Martha and Mary as they have just allowed Jesus into their home and our preparing a meal for him while he begins teaching. When Jesus entered Mary had chose to "sit at the Lord's feet and liten to his teaching." At this time Martha was in the kitchen completely distracted worrying over the meal which she was preparing. "She came up to Him (Jesus) and said, " Lord do you not care that my sister has left me to do all the serving alone? Tell her to help me."
Jesus responded "Martha, Martha you are worried and bothered about so many things, but only one thing matters, mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken from her.

My eyes were opened to this story by a brother i met and travelled with last spring. I feel this passage represents the human desire to rely on ourselves, pursuing what we think is best, pursuing a normality which we were raised to consider as "the right" way to live. But in reality......
only one things matters


So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker's hand
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Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be
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And I'll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I'll know my name as it's called again
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Monday, February 22, 2010

To You- Enter the Worship Circle

You are Good and forgiving
Your love is all i need
When i call you, you will answer me

Do you ever feel like the days you have here are dragging out? Like your just waiting for the amazing moment in life where your questions or dreams become reality? With transparency in mind i say to you, i feel this all too often. In fact i feel this way about life, yet i know that life should NOT be lived in this manner. In fact God speaks in Ecclesiates 11 "Be happy, young man, while you are young, and let your heart give you joy in the days of your youth." and in Proverbs 15:13 A happy heart makes the face cheerful, but heartache crushes the spirit.

In this way i feel God calling us to a life full of joy and satisfaction IN HIM each day, THROUGH HIM. But the realities of life on earth here seem to weigh heavy on me. i feel overwhelmed, i feel unsatisfied. I ponder on years past, retrieving feelings of Joy that had carried me through.

Last year on this date looking back i was in Nairobi, Kenya. I woke up early in the morning, eating breakfast with my team; a community. After breakfast Luke, Russia, Steve-o and I headed to a Nairobi Chapel service, we were worshiping together in the church where Steve-o was raised. I remember the service was held in a large tent outside and we sang both in Kiswahili and English. Steve-o had the biggest smile on his face, and the three of us (mizungus) had a joy upon us as carefree as a Kenyan, laughing amongst our new brother. After the service we headed home, blessed with a ride from a few canadian missionaries, we made it back to our place to indulge in some peanut butter and jelly before the trip downtown Nairobi. We were heading downtown to see a group called Jars of Clay, who by chance was playing a benefit show in Nairobi in efforts of the HIV/ AIDS pandemic. I have stories upon stories of this show, including the 3hr long opening lineup of some 25-30 kenyan acts that played on stage before Jars of Clay but i won't get into them too deeply, just to say they were hilarious and both Steve-o and i shared many dances to these beats. Today i am able to realize how special this community of believers specifically placed in my life were to me, impacting my life in ways that only God had seen coming. God had used each of them so uniquely to shape who i would become. How blessed those days and memories are to me. Yet i long for them to be present again....

Sometimes i feel that God is not working through me while i am here in Chicago.
Sometimes i feel that i am of more use somewhere else
Sometimes i feel that if i wouldn't have been born into privilege, i would trust through faith in Christ more
Sometimes i feel that my plans and my story become ruble when i allow God to lay his hand on it
Sometimes i feel that God delivers me through this wreckage
Sometimes i feel that God blesses and grows me in this process
Sometimes i feel that God specifically placed those in my life to help me through this road
Sometimes i embrace it
ALWAYS God is Faithful
ALWAYS God is Gracious
ALWAYS God is Forgiving



You are faithful in your mercy
You are gracious to the weak
Your mercy, is more than enough
Mercy i need
To you oh lord i lift my soul