Sunday, December 20, 2009

The Beatles- Across the Universe

Thoughts meander like a
restless wind inside a letter box
they tumble blindly as
they make their way across the universe

...I am now getting over the prolonged hangover from 17 hours of midwest travel from Kansas to Naperville. Thanks Megabus, Cta and Metra.... My body didn't appreciate it...

This trip did allow me to finish the book "Three Cups of Tea" by Greg Mortenson. If any of you have not read it i suggest it very much. Its a story in detail about a man who stumbles upon a Balti village during a near fatal K2 climb and in this process dedicates his life to building school for an overlooked, nearly non-existent part of the country. Its a very eye opening story about how one guy took his passion and gave himself up completely for someone else and was successful through it. Well i don't want to tell you everything.. hit it up!

I'm home now for the holidays...finally... it's good to be back! The whole family is here this time, my brother traveled from New York back home for the next two weeks. Although this will probably not slow life down much, we will be leaving for Chicago staying downtown for the next 3 days. I am excited for the the days following, trying new restaurants, going to some live theater productions and just messing around with the family.

Pray for me as i'm continually planning for Africa this summer, its beginning to become overwhelming..

post yr thought.. peace easy

Sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
exciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe

Nothing's gonna change my world

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Composure- August Burns Red

Shake it off.
Pick yourself up, they say.

This is a tribute to one of my favorite bands, who is playing tonight in Chicago! I am grieving the fact that i was too lazy to pre-order tickets and they have now completely SOLD OUT! Raise your glasses up, Cheers to August Burns Red and Underoath. I will make a better effort next time you come around!

.......................self pity passing.................................

Tracks to Check out:
1. Composure
2. Your little suburbia laid in ruins

Others of course are amazing. But those are oldies but amazing!

Life can be overwhelming,
But don't turn your back on the strongest crutch you've ever had.
They have always been there to brace your fall.
Wave goodbye to the past.
You've got your whole life to lead.
It's time to gain some ground.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Chicago- Sufjan Stevens

I fell in love again
all things go, all things go
drove to Chicago

Im back in the city after thanksgiving break. Break was amazing. I was able to completely chill, can't say i did much, maybe not exciting to most but it was quite relaxing for me. It's funny i'm in the city now wishing i was somewhere else.. school is getting tough to finish up this semester and my mind is convinced that i have better things to do than what i had set out to get done, finish my degree. I find it to be a big struggle. But as i sit here i'm reminded of everything in my life that i have to LOVE; Chicago, big city life, the opportunity to meet close friends, living the journey! Love is such a huuge emotion that keeps us going, i speak for myself mainly, coming from the experience living this crazy life, testing as many boundaries as possible. Always coming back to the one truth i know for sure:

God is love, and all who live in love live in God, and God lives in them. 1 John 4:16

Keep me in mind. Pray about Africa.

we slept in parking lots
I don't mind, I don't mind
I was in love with the place
in my mind, in my mind
I made a lot of mistakes
in my mind, in my mind

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Intoxicating- David Crowder Band

Intoxicating You are to me

Illuminating You are to see

Truly breathtaking You are to breathe

Sending my head swimming You are, You see

NO excuses this time for not writing for awhile.. other than laziness that is.

Have you ever thought of laziness in itself plaguing your life? ..... me neither HA. Well i guess thats not all true. I feel the result of extreme laziness leads us towards a very submissive lifestyle. Submissive only within ourselves, convincing ourselves of a world that involves nothing but a lack of inhibition towards a future at all. This confuses the heck out of me. Although i acknowledge i fall victim to a slow paced lifestyle, sometimes misjudged to be a careless laziness,i know within myself that it is temporary. Just something i'm considering as i lay on my bed eating flaming hot Cheetos and typing. (surprisingly hard to do at the same time by the way).

Is this the life i desire? Should i not be overjoyed to live each day to the fullest? I hear this stuff all the time, mostly in church services or chapel... and yet i feel that as flawed people it is impossible to do this on your own! Which just might be the key.

If laziness is swamping my lifestyle then how do i reach out of it? What keeps me going day in and day out? Lists are always good.

1. God (so general, yet unwavering)

2. Family and Friendships (Defining who i am)

3.Africa (Hope, one of the greatest stability factors we have as humans)

I'm not sure about ya'll but i know for a fact we were not created to live life alone! I'm seeking what that means for me, I'm seeking what a life outside of laziness, outside of submission to a luke warm faith and lifestyle really entails. Its pretty wild for my mind to grasp.

And I've lost my mind, I'm sure to find

Need to apologize for my

Lack of inhibition, for my belligerent condition

But with You this near I'm dizzy

Inebriating You are to me

Completely captivating You are to see

Sending my world spinning You are, You see

And now I find a blurry line

Here between you and I

Raise the cup, drink 'til I'm full

Sing 'til I can't, 'til my voice is gone

And my head is spinning dizzy

Illuminating You are to see

Truly breathtaking You are to breathe

Intoxicating you see

Monday, October 26, 2009

Sleeping in- Postal Service

And then last night i had that strange dream
Where everything was exactly how it seemed
Where concerns about the world getting warmer
Don't wake me i plan on sleeping

Well.. I forgot my password for a bit… HA but I’m back in action. This will be just a quick update.

I have been stressing about the little things in life. I find myself doing this too often than I desire. I just got over some big exams and have finished up my first quad at my new school. Things are going great! I am constantly reminded that God has placed me exactly where he wants me..

Exactly where growth is optimum.

Here’s a wild concept but has helped me throughout life, whenever I get stressed about the position I am in I take a step back and realize that I’m not the controller.. I have complete power to lead the direction I take, but my direction is guided by something GREATER! No longer do I have to make every decision blindly.

My lifestyle: pursuing the position I’m placed in and seeing how God works me through it.

I just bought my Africa tickets!!! : ) I will be In Kenya from May 12-29, following that I will be flying to South Africa/ Swaziland from May 29th to July 24th, directly following I will be heading to Little Rock Arkansas to work a session at Camp Ozark for two weeks then heading home for a day or two before leaving for California with my Dad for a 10 day back packing trip!

Obviously it seems that I have a busy summer ahead of me.. But you know what?? Currently I have 50 cents in my bank account, due to flight costs. But I don’t care! What does a life look like completely surrendering to God’s will, or God’s calling in your life? I believe I am trying to find exactly that out! What does it look like to Trust something not of yourself or of this world… I’m trying that too!

The controlling side of me is dying… and for me.. I AM OKAY WITH THAT!

Life is soo exciting! I can’t wait to see where it takes me!

The people thought they were just being rewarded
For treating others as they like to be treated
For obeying stop signs and curing diseases
For mailing letters with the address of the sender
Now we can swim any day in november

Don't wake me i plan on Sleeping!

Saturday, October 3, 2009

"This is It, This is it" - As Cities Burn

We try and live forgiven but they won't let us forget...
the bodies we're still in
the bodies that we still war against
... Iv laid in a hammock for about 16 hours in the past 3 days... not saying thats anything special, well actually you should try it out yourself, personally it has been INCREDIBLE!

In fact, so much soo that i would almost consider this orange hammock to be one of my top spontaneous purchases on Ebay! I have an addiction to Ebay actually, similar to those minds controlled by drugs, sex, alcohol or better yet World of Warcraft... my vice is Ebay, at least i admit it. At least i can sac-up and tell the world that i find myself exploring that website along with craigslist for hours upon hours.. This could be a direct correlation with the collection of random items i have in my possession such as, turntables, A large Djembe and now a sweet orange Hammock! In fact, according to NP stats class i am 99% positive that the population correlation of my random objects are due in part to the website Thank you for your cares, pray for me. HA!

Bands currently on repeat:
-As Cities Burn
-Chasing Victory
- August Burns Red

Check em out.

This is it, This is it
Your gonna sink for your sins
Unless grace be the wind
That sets your sail

Thursday, October 1, 2009

"Trying to find a Balance"- Atmosphere

"I'm not insane, in fact I'm pretty rational"

I ask myself when my breaking point is. In fact, when is the exact moment where the only phrase worth declaring is "NO MORE MISSIONS?" This usually comes around the point where I'm relaxing with nothing to worry about, but those around and whoever longs to go on that ride with me. That's a rarity for most.... I make it a priority...landed a Job though... that was a big mission.

Woke up an hour before "go time", Soldier field the destination, I was starting this day clearly far from the easiest position available. I was 14 miles away, with a ride, a friend and a smash load of cars to navigate thru what we call here a normal business day's worth of Traffic. Enjoying the ride? Maybe.... taking in the looks of mesmerized drivers anticipating their routinely monotonous day that they have created for themselves was more or less.... engaging?! I couldn't figure out within my own mind why anyone would willingly do this daily. Or even sacrifice hours spent enjoying the life we are given to live within worldly parameters that promise assurance of the "American Dream". I guess there must be a balance somewhere.. I’m still on that journey; at least I landed a job. Bears games, selling beer.. What could be better right?

Learned lessons: Take em or Leave em!

- Having 7 kids before the age 26 is probably not a good idea.. (Credit: Man at bears training).. Pros: you will have an entire team at home. Cons: you might be working for SportService for life.

The Lord calls us to live fulfilling lives.. Now it is up to us to discern what that means within our own lives. But I know at least for me, trying to find that balance between living just to make it and living to impact those I have been fortunate enough to have in my life, is a balancing scale that I don't intend to let slide.

"In the days of Kings and Queens I was a jester, treat me like a God, NO they treat me like a Leper!" I'm trying to find a balance...

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Beginning!

Alright guys this is the beginning of a new chapter, a new phase. Im starting this blog to help record the events of life that tend to get washed over. Sounds good right? You may be reading this and knowing me may not believe that i'm gonna keep it up, but don't be fooled, you never know!

I attend North Park University.
I have a slight obsession with frisbee
My phone is always dead or about to die
My stomach is a bottomless pit as well as a garbage disposal

I have a pet Rhino
I like money
I don't know what a hookah is


Im spending this summer in Africa guys and i plan to keep this blog updated on how i am doing with the process of getting myself down there, where i will be staying, what i will be doing and how you could help me in the process. I would love to hear from you guys, whether its offering me help in anyway such as prayer, suggestions or taking action helping financially or physically! Thanks..

Peace Easy!